I Am-ness

Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the revolution of your consciousness. All you need is to embrace it and make use of it.

During my recent trip to Chiang Mai, I mentioned to my friend about my interest in studying Ego in a deeper level. Their nature , how they effect every aspect of our thinking and it’s form. I even told her about my visualisation of Ego less self. Her immediate question – “Why do you really need to obtain a Ego less mind?” eluded me to a deeper level.

I tried to feel rather than think the answer. “Why do I need to learn? What am I seeking to achieve? What’s my tenderness in the moment of weakness ? What makes my I Am-ness feel diminished?
These questions were quite a shift to my thoughts. Surprisingly the book I picked to read during my trip also became the right pick for the right time. It helped me to identify my I Am-ness closely.

The things I valued and cared being attached to no long could diminish Who I Am. In reality we are never really attached to a thing but to a thought that had “I” , “Me” or “Mine” in it. I realised whenever I completely accept a loss, I go beyond Ego, and the I Am which is consciousness itself, emerges:

I had read, Jesus once said
“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs will be the kingdom of heaven.” Poor in spirit means : No inner baggage, no identifications. ” Kingdom of heaven” the simple but profound joy of Being that is there when you let go of identifications and so become “Poor in spirit”.

I realise that though I had let go of certain things completely in past, the egoistic thought still consists in it. Letting go of that Egoistic self is an act of far greater power than defending or hanging on. And the right path to “Kingdom of Heaven”

It’s time to redo my inner self once again, clear the egoistic clutter if any still exists to identify my Being more closely and feel the true “I Am-ness”.

The joy of being is only possible if you get out of your head. Being must be felt, it cannot be thought . The Ego doesn’t know about it because thought is what it consists of. Ego isn’t who you are, it only pretend to be you.

Yes, To travel is to take a journey into yourself, a new place, a new book and a new shift in thought ! 


Yi Peng Lantern Festival
Chiang Mai , Thailand
12 – 16 November 2016

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